I am not weak. I am not lazy. I will always do what is needed of me and more. The problem is that when it comes to taking care of ME I am still really bad at it. I tried back in 2011 to fix this (see my Jan 2011 post) and it went well. I lost about 30 pounds. It was awesome. Now I am up 20 pounds. So I will try again. I know I am the problem.
I make excuses.
I don't eat super great (but way better than I did).
I don't make time.
I don't work out enough.
I can't keep my stress under control.
I put EVERYONE else first.
I want to change that. I have big plans for myself and none of them include being a giant fat ass that gets winded walking up and down stairs.
I want to lose weight for me; so I can be happy with who I am.
I want to be healthy, so I can be around for a long time for my husband, my daughter and my students.
I want to be an athlete. Roller derby is my passion and if I can't play then I am letting myself and my team down. I want to make it on the Charted Roster and a lethargic, wheezy, fatty is NOT going to do that.
Most of all I want to be HAPPY!
So maybe, just maybe...this will be the time I get my shit together, and beat this thing.
